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My dogs were skunked last night. Not a little: like warfare of liquid fire raining upon our home. More good news: one of my dogs is nursing nine one-week-old pups. Now I am picturing nine helpless, blind little puppies withering away from the toxicity of rancid stench upon the bosom of their mother.
My thoughts (and the words I spoke aloud to my husband): “I feel like Job.” Life has been so difficult for so long, and the hits just keep coming.The infamous Job lost his family, his home, even his farm animals and nearly his mind. No, life isn’t really that bad but some days, my doomsday mentality takes over, and I feel that the horizon is closing in and stealing my breath and crushing my chest.
This is a classic tale, but it bears repeating: the losses that we have experienced the last few months and years, combined with some major “life stressors” have nearly broken me, but God has never left me.
Last night in a moment of skunk-infused self-pity, I thought of Job. Then I remembered that I own a Bible. I have been reading a few verses a week on my phone, but not really studying the Word lately.
Then this morning (after bathing the dogs several more times while wearing a bank-robber style bandana around my face), I stood up and said aloud, “I am going to spend sometime with Jesus Christ,” as if it were a verbal contract, once spoken, unable to be broken.
I picked up my Bible and opened it straight to Job (without fumbling or flipping a single page or making an effort).
This is what I read:
I am certain that to my friends (if I have any left after these trying times) would agree that I too sound like a blustering wind.
Much of their counsel has well-meaning general truths, but they were callous in their assumptions that Job and his family had done something to deserve this “punishment.”
So why does it seem that struggles compound themselves like a sarcophagus around us, even when we are doing our best?
Bildad missed it. He missed the meaning of Job’s losses. He assumed they were a punishment of something well deserved by a sinful family. Bildad missed it, but so do we. These words struck me, “…but sometimes the trial of extraordinary graces…”
What are “extraordinary graces”?
Thanks to Job, today I have a renewed perspective. I know in my heart that all the “bad” that is happening is paving the way for potential blessings, and perhaps even an extension of extraordinary grace from my Father.
The more time I spend with Him, the more I can see His plan. The more I trust Him, the more I lean on Him. The more I lean into Him for understanding, the more peace I feel. The more I make Him my one and only Master, holding no idols before Him, the more I can feel his reassurance and promise of blessings if I do not quit seeking Him for all of my “answers.”
I have allowed myself to feel like a victim for far too long. I am not being punished. My life is not in ruins. Whether I have a lot of a little, I will rejoice in him.
Perseverance is painful and exhausting, but without it we cannot be mature and complete and we will always lack ____________ (something). So with the love and grace of God, I will consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever I face trials of many kinds and I will I learn the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want (James 1:2-4 & Philippians 4:12).
This is my prayer.
 Matthew Henry Commentary
Kris Wolfe is a Christian, wife and mother. Kris is a freelance writer who focuses on spiritual and practical encouragement. Kris also writes lessons for small group purposes for churches and is a small group coach. Kris has a master’s degree in Biblical Counseling from Luther Rice University and Seminary and is a listed TN Supreme Court Rule 31 Mediator.
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