When I was asked to speak at a ladies conference a couple of months ago, I was honored. I was asked to discuss my life before and after Christ. unlike many Christians who became followers at an early age, I was very much an adult when I became a follower. The issue for the conference became, what do I talk about? Where do I begin?The daunting task at hand was: remember all that I was before I met God, and all that I am now that I have, and choose one thing that has changed for me because of Him.
After weeks of praying for God to shine a light on the thing He wanted me to share, my prayers sort of came up empty. I realized that there is not ONE thing that has changed because of God’s love; EVERYTHING has changed because of Him.
When I was a little girl, I remember a lady at church (whom I had never met!) saying to me, “You can’t really love others until you love yourself.” I thought that was the silliest thing I had ever heard. Not only had I never heard of loving yourself, I felt quite certain that I didn’t, nor was I supposed to. It wasn’t until God and I started spending time together that I realized the love He has for me, and His desire for that love to be reflected in my relationships too.
Like many of the women I know, I have been let down and rejected by many people, especially the father figures and other men in my life. I have searched high and low for the security and love that I thought should’ve came from them. At the age of 30, I was divorced.
Five years later, I married again. If you are my Facebook friend, you will know that after 8 years with my now husband, I am smitten. With him I have found security and love. But it has little to do with him. I am a new woman because of Christ and I seek real security and love because of Christ, and I have real security and love through Christ.
That lady was right; I do love others more because I love myself. I am a writer now, helping women grow closer to God. And because of this love, I am no longer an unremarkable nobody. I am a child of God, and I am here to share His love.
Before God rescued me, I felt…
- Like a burden
- Never good enough
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2. Cor. 12:9-10).